And now I’m freaking out about it. Like, I feel like I should have put some moves on her tonight, kiss her more, whatever… But I was so happy just laying there cuddling. But I refuse to fuck this up and let myself overthink things.
All I know is I like having her in my arms and I like being in her arms. There isn’t any other place in the world I’d rather be.
I’m falling really hard. I’m just hoping I don’t hit concrete like I usually do.
Was pretty awesome. Amy is just… She’s beautiful and loving and sweet and hilarious. All these times I’ve gotten to be next to her I start to like her a bit more for something new.
Kissing her is great. Cuddling her is great. Laying next to her is great. Hearing her heartbeat with my head on her chest while she runs her fingers through my hair… The fucking best.
Date number three was… It was amazing! I gotta get out of my head though because she makes me nervous so then I feel like I’m not kissing her the way she deserves to be kissed.
Her touch is… It makes me melt so much. Sitting in the theater and having he rhokd my hand and rub my arm… It was perfect. I feel wanted for a change. And I feel like there is equal give and take this early in the game that I can’t help but feel hopeful.
Seeing her again Sunday. I can’t even wait.
Feels like nobody has ever before.
We have a date set for Sunday… one where she says we are gonna watch the movies or the Oscars and make out… This is great news. But Sunday is so far awayyyy. So. We checked our schedules. We’re going to a movie tomorrow and grabbing a few drinks after.
This. Is. Happening.
Someone is legitimately interested in getting to know me. Someone who makes plans and doesn’t break them. Someone who sends me cute messages during the day. Someone who doesn’t ignore me. Someone who compliments me and means it. Someone who is genuine.
Man. I am on top the world right now. All because of Amy.
She’s just so damn adorable. OMFG I can’t even understand how I got so lucky to find her. She’s so kind. So considerate. She’s thoughtful and she compliments me in an honest way not just lines… Like, I FEEL special to her. I don’t think I’ve stopped thinking about since our date last night and every time I think about her I catch myself smiling.
Was a fucking great time.
I have never laughed that much in my life with someone I’m getting to know. No nerves. She is so damn pretty and so damn funny.
I kissed her when I got her to her car. It was sooooooo bad but so good… You know? She was nervous, she told me later, and I was nervous and freezing.
But you know what she said?
That she was pretty sure we would be doing a lot more kissing.
I like where this is heading. A lot.
Saying goodbye is easy now.
There are some really shitty people in this world. I’m not the greatest. But god damn I am not at Chrissy’s low ass level.
Now I feel better about growing things with Amy. I will never worry about Chrissy again coming to trick my mind.
Last Saturday. Second date Tuesday night… She’s so funny. So cute. So short. Dark hair. Blue blue eyes. She’s got a crazy big girl job that intimidates me. But. We just click. Same sense of humor. Same thoughts. Same age even. In fact, she’s older. By thirteen days, but, seeing as I’ve only dated super young girls in the 22-25 range… this is a big change up.
She asked me out both times. She must be interested. ;)